Aurora Leigh

The mortuary called us last Monday and told us that our little "Rawr" was a little girl. We decided to name her Aurora Leigh. Finding out that we were having a little girl made it so much better, and so much harder at the same time.

Now that we have a name we are able to move forward with so many things. The mortuary was able to get a name change on the hospital documents, and we were finally able to order the urn.

In loving arms

Unfortunately, the site wrote to tell me that wouldn't have it in stock 'till the following week, so basically, things are at a standstill once again. Honestly, I just want all this to be over. I want closure.I want to lay my baby to rest.

My birthday is in a few days... Doing all this around this time is so hard to think about. It's like I've separated both events in my head. My birthday, and my baby's funeral. God, give me strength to get through these coming days.

A Place to Rest

Danny and I went to the cemetery today. We looked at different options, but in the end we decided to go for an internment. We are going to speak to the mortuary tomorrow and discuss the options for cremation there first, and then we can move forward with the cemetery. So far, it seems like our idea of using our own urn is going to work out.

Greenwood Memorial Park

I thank God for the generosity of so many people.Because of them, all this actually seems possible. I really wish there was something I could do to show how much they have touched me. I plan to make cookies or cupcakes to express my gratitude in some small way. I know it's not enough, but I hope they accept it nonetheless.

-Natalie

Memento

It's been more than two weeks since I found out that my little one didn't have a heart beat. I have gone through more emotions that I can count, and many times they all hit me at once. My heart still hurts, but I find that these days have brought healing and the beginning of what I know to be peace.

When we found out we were pregnant, my husband and I looked on the online site to see what our little one looked like at that stage of life. Our baby at that point,we found, didn't look very human, but rather quite reptilian. My husband remarked that our baby looked like a dinosaur, to which I responded, "Rawr," and so the name stuck.

Recently, we ordered a plushie to remind us of "Rawr." There were quite a variety of choices, but when we both saw this "dreamy eyes" tyrannosaurus, we knew we had to order it.

Dreamy Eyes T-Rex



Having something tangible to hold during times of grief has helped me more than I thought it would, and I am very happy that we ordered it.

I realize that this is just the beginning of a very long road that lay ahead, but with the help of my family, friends, and most importantly, God, I know I will make it through.

-Natalie